Crisis Averted?

Day two of unemployment I got a health card. When I got health card in the past you had to go and watch a video and they gave you a card . now you have to do an online powerpoint that has random quizzes and a test at the end. I worked in food service and I came across a total of zero of the situations presented during that time. I also made an unboxing video for my youtube channel, it is one of the worst videos ever. Maybe that will be my thing , making terrible youtube videos lol.I am still in shock that I got fired.  I am also in shock that my son just … left. This apartment seems so much bigger with just me in it, well me and a tiny demanding dog. It is so quiet. And I always had the comfort of a man here so now every noise I hear I know it is someone coming in to murder me. I forgot I started a load of clothes yesterday and nearly gave myself a heart attack when the spin cycle ended. I have too much time to be inside my own head. I am glad my meds were adjusted before all this started , I don’t think I would be able to handle this the way I was a few weeks ago.  I am trying to look at this as a good thing. I have made it through worse situations. I just thought at this point in my life things would be easier. I don’t want to struggle my whole life. But hopefully this is the start of something good

the video is here:

“And after the storm, I run and run as the rains come. And I look up, I look up, on my knees and out of luck, I look up.”