Crisis Averted?

There was time when someone snidely asked me “why would someone want to marry you?”I just realized i can proudly say, ” because he cares about me.” I just realized that someone asked me to marry them and then flew all the way here to do it and to be with me. I don’t know why that just hit me. Maybe because I am sitting here wishing he was here.

..Let’s not forget ourselves my friend, I am flawed if I’m not free, and your husband will never leave you, he will never leave you for me…

I have had a whirlwind month so far. After three years I finally met one of my favourite people and promptly fell madly in lust with him. (I think he feels the same) For a solid week i got to do nothing but lie in the arms of someone who made me feel alive and beautiful. And now he is gone back to Jolly old England about as far away as he can be. I wont get all mushy and nostalgic I am trying to absorb a biut of his cynicism and maybe rub some of my romantic naivete onto him. For now i will just take it a day at a time. I cant really afford anymore heart break .

…Its ok in the day, i”m staying busy, run around so i don’t have to wonder where is he…..